Posted by BB | | Posted On 05 April, 2010 at Monday, April 05, 2010

My life has become a bit crazy this month and I realize I need to cut back on some things, this blog is one of them. Don't worry, I'll be back soon enough. Probably towards the end of April

For Good - Part 5

Posted by BB | Labels: , , , , | Posted On 02 April, 2010 at Friday, April 02, 2010

I, Beloved Boyd, am a Gay Mormon Boy and everything I say here is the truth to the best of my knowledge:

Here is where keeping a journal would have come in handy. I have GChat’s to help piece everything together but when you get emotional details fade. This is my best attempt to piece everything together.

A few days before Valentine’s Day I started to get over-analytical about my life. It got to the point that Scott counseled me with the following advice:
”Boyd, it's normal to have doubts. …Every situation and every circumstance can be hyperanalyzed and examined and with enough effort it's possible to find potential problems with even the most inspired and holy decisions. You could literally spend your entire life agonizing over whether or not you really received a prompting from God to find a husband and raise a family. You could debate the facts with yourself for years, and the longer you belabor the issue the more time you'll have to come up with arguments both for and against. But logic and reasoning are not the best tools by which to judge a spiritual experience, and while it's good to use the knowledge and intellect that God blessed you with there comes a point when you need to let go of what you know and rely instead on what you feel.
At some point throughout this I went over to my Dad’s. I think it was with Joseph but I can’t remember. My dad’s address has been my permanent address and so any mail I got went there. While there I got a letter from Mohinder, my friend from BYU. He was on his mission and had mailed me a letter from the far east. In the letter he told me that
”I’m not sure what is going on with you and what I can do to help. I wish I understood more, but I simply don't. I’m sorry.”
My friend could tell by the tone of my letters that I was doing about as well as an 18 dollar bill in a vending machine. He wanted to understand and felt my pain. It touched me deeply and I was glad for the letter. Accompanying the letter were two photos. The first showed Mohinder in front of a statue of Shiva the destroyer. Just like this one.

The second one showed a picture that he had taken on a trip to the zoo on P-day. It was of two baboons sniffing and playing with each other’s butts. It looked like this one. And had a note written on the back. Something along the lines of “I knew you would enjoy this.”

The letter and photos touched my heart and made me look deeper into perspective. I read those words and saw the photos just outside an ice cream shop where I met with Joseph, as my boyfriend, for one last time. I knew I needed to end things for both our sakes and so I did.

I wish I could say that Joseph and I are good friends now, but as it turns out I am probably the last person he would want to see. However, as the title of this series indicates, I was touched and changed by Joseph. He opened my heart, helped my Mother understand me a bit more, and helped me to see that perhaps a relationship wasn’t for me. I do’t know if I’ve been changed for the better, but because I knew Joseph, I have been changed for good.

Dear Readers:

Posted by BB | | Posted On 01 April, 2010 at Thursday, April 01, 2010

Many of you who read this blog know my true identity. Some of you have figured it out and asked. Others I have told. But due to recent events I have reveal to all of you the honest truth.

As you know, I have been writing under a pseudonym but what you probably don’t realize is that I operate concurrent blogs. I am the author of both www.agaymormonboy.blogspot.com and www.belovedboyd.blogspot.com

Yes the blogger behind both “The Journey of a Gay Mormon Boy” and “The Wandering Delusions of a Gay Mormon Boy” is the same person. What's more is that both of these blogs have been a social experiment. Last June, in an attempt to better my writing and understand the gay community I took up an alter ego, as I did research for my new project. I became a “Gay Mormon Boy” and created a work of pure fiction, testing new characters and ideas with an online audience.

I read many stories of angst and anguish that I hadn’t thought about before this experiment. They helped me craft my story that has hooked many readers. After a few months of writing one blog I knew that I had to have a companion story. Something raw and gritty. In order for people to believe Beloved Boyd I included a disclaimer of honesty so people would disassociate the two blogs.

I decided to include the second blog for several reasons, but mostly because I work well with two heroes in one long tale as is the case with my most famous work and as these the two blogs intersect and become one. I am certain that you are familiar with my other works as I see them discussed across the Moho blogosphere, and hope that as you read this new blog (starting tomorrow at www.gaymormonboys.blogspot.com) you'll enjoy the adventures of GMB and Boyd, my new Jacob and Edward.


Stephenie Meyer
UPDATE: Yes, this is and was an April Fools Day Joke, but enjoy the brilliant humor that it instills.