A Sentimental Man - Part 3

Posted by BB | | Posted On 21 July, 2010 at Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I, Beloved Boyd, am a Gay Mormon Boy and everything I say here is the truth to the best of my knowledge:

I still have the 10-page letter he mailed to me from India and I am going to share with you a few of the things Mohinder wrote to me.

"You are in Apostasy. I'm sorry, but that is the truth. It's not because you are 'evil', but because Satan desires you. He is tempting you and leading you with "carnal desires". You desire your own will, therefore you recieve an "answer" that coincides with that will. ... Satan has put in your mind that you are gay, when the truth is that you are an addict to compulsion. Your nature has changed as you have given over to Satan, just as your nature is changed as you are given over to Christ" (emphasis in original)

He also challenged me to "Go and look at yourself in the mirro, look yourself in the eye, and see if these thoughts come into your mind: I am proud of the man I am today. I am a beautiful clean Son of God. Jesus Christ has made me into the person I am today. This is the test to know what line you are standing: [with] God or [with] Satan. Determine how you got there as well: by following the testimony of the apostles of your own."

I look at myself in the mirror and while I see faults emanating from my past sex life and looking at pornography but when I look at my sexuality I see a beautiful child of God that is loved and cared for by my Elder Brother Christ, who intimately knows what I have been going through.

Mohinder shared one last thing with me that I will share with you.

"I will never forget the man I know you are: a man of courage, love and a seeker of truth I have faith in you and those around supporting you."

His letter cut me like a knife. I felt wounded and in I remember falling to the ground in tears many times as I read the words he wrote to me. His words were one of the few that had the power to change my life and they did. His words helped shape me and my heart into a callous piece of stone that has learned to deflect what people say about me. I became uncaring of people's opinions about me except a few. Mohinder of course was one of those.

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There are 3 Words of Warning for A Sentimental Man - Part 3